A common compliment I’m given is how optimistic and happy I am. I love reading your messages because they’re like little love notes of encouragement that have helped keep me moving forward some days. While I love that you guys see me as a source of happiness, and I’m so grateful to have spread joy, I also feel very guilty because happiness is something that can easily elude me.
I’m your classic optimist for sure and it takes quite a bit to get me down. But when life becomes overwhelming or when there’s just too much chaos, I become the biggest grump you’ve ever seen. I yell at my kids, I pick fights with Brian, and e.v.e.r.y little thing just stresses me out. When I get to that place of worry and anxiety it’s really hard for me to snap back and I feel like this big rain cloud is hanging over me. And I wouldn’t say it’s depression, just the ups and downs of a normal life. Depression is a monster and I don’t want anyone to think that a few self-help books could ever clear it up. Over the years though, I’ve found several things that have helped me to remain in that state of happiness and optimism and things I need to do daily to keep me there. I wanted to share those with you, mostly as a reminder for myself because this summer has been over the top stressful! Anyone else?!
In the middle of all the easter egg hunts, the yummy treats and bunny crafts I couldn’t help but stop and remember my Savior. Life has a funny way of helping you forget your purpose… The days are so long and busy and it’s incredibly easy to let the world in. The shows on TV, the loud facebook posts, the busy list of to-do’s. It’s easy to forget the Savior. That He’s here. That He’s listening. That He’s waiting for us to come unto Him. To remember Him. To give Him as much time as we give everyone else. Elder Ballard, one of my heroes, spoke at out church service last night and this morning. While I was wrestling the kids most of the time, I heard his message loud and clear. To live in such a way that you can let the Spirit influence your life. There’s definitely a disconnect lately… people learn the gospel of Christ. It’s in their brains. But that
I’ve honestly been dreading this day for years now… 30? EW. Only old people turn 30. I’m too young and awesome to ever turn thirty hahahahaha!!!! Alas, here we are. I’ve done a lot of soul searching over the past couple of weeks and I’ve come to a profound conclusion… Thirty is going to be freaking awesome.