Stripe Clutch: Asos | Floral heels: Seychelles on Amazon (fit true to size and super comfy heel height) | Graphic Tee: c/o Poppy and Dot | Pencil Skirt: c/o Poppy and Dot | Blazer: Similar here and here | Hair Extensions: c/o Laced Hair | Lipstick: Mac All Fired Up | Watch: c/o Daniel Wellington | Bracelet: c/o Stella and Dot | Statement Necklace: Dying over this and this one | Delicate Gold Necklaces: c/o Made by Mary (more details on these amazing necklaces soon!)
I’ve officially made it to 31 weeks!!! At my dr. appointment today we found out that Baby A is 3.4 pounds and Baby B is 3.8. They both have strong heart beats and as far as we can tell healthy and happy. Baby A’s head is down and he’s ready to go and Baby B is breach. Their arms and legs are facing each other which is why my stomach literally looks like I’ve swallowed a basketball (I guess the fact that I’m 5’2″ isn’t helping me either) and when they start kicking — holy crap! Just one area of my stomach moves, it’s like whac-a-mole! I feel very blessed to have had such a healthy pregnancy. I’m still going to the gym three times a week (1 hour on the elliptical), I’m still able to clean my house and take care of my family. Just yesterday we went to the zoo and while I was a little nervous for all the walking, it turned out to be a good and much needed adventure. There are definitely times I need to slow down and sleeping is getting harder, but considering I’m growing two little babies and haven’t had much more than insane fatigue and some hormonal drama at the beginning, I’m calling myself lucky.
I was told the other day by someone who has twins (their first and second and they don’t have any other kids yet) that having twins second is easier, because you have older siblings to play with and entertain the two. I don’t know why that comment got to me, and I know she probably meant nothing of it but it just got me thinking. I actually agree with it to some extent… but I’m not sure it’s fair for a mother to tell another that they have it harder or easier. We all have our struggles and while I won’t be dealing with entertaining my twins like I did with my oldest, I will be dealing with getting my big kids off to school and trying to juggle extracurriculars. I’m all alone out here in Ohio and that’s been the biggest trial so far, the loneliness and lack of help. I don’t remember where I heard this but I loved it so much — “Just because you’re drowning at 60 feet doesn’t mean that I’m not drowning at 30”. We are all doing our best. And while I’ve never struggled with a rebellious teenager, the loss of a close family member or infertility I do have my own trials that I am very familiar with. Let’s focus on building each other up, on celebrating our differences and trying to be that light that people look for in dark times.
I absolutely love all of you and your sweet comments and emails have gotten me through some really tuff times. Thank you for always being there, for listening and for encouraging me along. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have you as friends! xoxo