I look back on our last two years as a family and I’m overwhelmed with gratitude. If only I could have seen then what I know now. Brian has worked incredibly hard and I’m beyond proud. He’s pushed himself to be better not only as a student, but a leader and father. He wasn’t only dealing with the pressure of school, which was daunting I’m sure, but he was consistently supportive of me and my goals. That usually meant there wasn’t any dinner on the table, or that he needed to watch the kids right when he got home so I could work. I can’t tell you how many times he went to the grocery store, folded all the laundry and put the kids to bed by himself. He encouraged me when I was making my album, he spent his spring break taking pictures for my hair book and we spent our nights together dreaming of the future and how amazing it would be. What I’ve now realized is that even though these past two years have been incredibly challenging for us, these have been the best moments of our lives. These are the years we’ll look back on. These are the years we will dream about.
This weekend we officially accepted an incredible job opportunity from Poly-One out of Avon, Ohio. It’s definitely not where I saw us raising a family but I guess that’s where you trust that the Lord knows your path better than you do. We will be leaving our family here and moving nearly 2,000 miles from everything we know. We’ll be leaving the safety of the beautiful mountains, the community that we rely on and love and also the sweet family above us who have treated us like their own. To say I’m scared to leave Utah is the understatement of the year. I’m terrified.
Through my anxiety though, I’m comforted knowing that the Lord has a plan for us. He’s been guiding our lives and we can see His hand in all of this. I’m holding onto hope that Ohio is going to be amazing. Hope that there will be friends for my kids to play with. Hope that there’s a family out there who will need us just as much as we need them. I know that as long as I have Brian and my two mini-me’s I’m going to be just fine. I’m so excited to finally have a plan. We’ve been living in limbo for the last seven years — it’s been exhausting! I’m excited to finally buy a home and to have a yard to take care of (never thought I’d say that did ya, mom?!). I’m excited to be near a beach again! I’m excited for the humidity, to be hours away from New York and Niagra Falls. While I’m freaking out, I’m really excited to start the next chapter in our lives. If it’s anything like the last, I have nothing to worry about.