Loss…
Grief…
Failure…
Betrayal…
These words are all a part of my story.
It’s messy.
It’s heartbreaking.
I still wake up sometimes and think it was all just a really bad nightmare.
It’s unfortunately a story many of us know too well…
Days and nights spent broken on the floor wondering how in the world tomorrow could come?
How getting up, let alone finding joy could ever be possible…
My story though, is also one of hope.
It’s one of faith and forgiveness.
It’s proof that pain and joy can coexist.
It’s one of change.
Sometimes it takes a life shattering experience, a loss so huge to stop.
To pull back and see things clearly.
To accept the help, to lean in to the shortcomings and work harder to be better.
I don’t love the phrase “you are enough” because while I do believe it, it implies that growth is not necessary.
To me it condones mediocrity and I do not believe we are mediocre.
Yes, you are enough.
You always will be because you are His.
But you also deserve growth.
Love.
Passion.
Joy.
It’s cost is work.
It’s cost is believing you are enough as is but KNOWING you are worth the extra work and kindness and love to be even better.
The past several days have been really hard for me.
I wish I could show up exactly how I want.
It’s frustrating.
My work looks like putting down my phone.
It looks like being present with those I love.
It looks like serving others.
It looks like crossing off my to-do’s and caring more about relationships.
It looks like prayer.
Faith.
Humility.
Even though you are enough and even though our stories are different, you have work too…
Do you know what it is?
It’s not a straight shot to the perfect marriage and family and job.
It’s not a straight shot to unwavering faith and self love.
The road is jagged and the hills are steep and that’s ok.
And that deserves grace.
We will all go through 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 and I know we are all capable of getting through it.
With greatness.
With forgiveness.
With kindness.
And most of all, love.
*If you haven’t heard, I went through an unexpected divorce last year. For more on that, check out this post- Divorce: Why I quit filming YouTube videos. For more updates on my current life, follow me on Instagram @twistmepretty
